The value of NDEs

When I stated, in concluding last month's page, that I was unable to support, on the basis of my cognitive resources, that every conscious Ego is attracted to the Spirit dimension at the end of its organic life, I obviously did not mean to rule out that possibility. If we read the accounts of some NDEs, such as – for instance – that of Jayne Smith, we get the clear impression that the power of attraction of the Spirit's energy extends to all human beings, at the end of their organic life, regardless of the vicissitudes in which they have been involved due to the subjection of their Ego to the dynamics of the human psyche. On the other hand, I also stated that I sincerely hope that it could be so. However, if everything can appear clear, perfect and absolutely understandable when the conscious Ego is in the field of action of the Spirit dimension, the human condition still appears problematic once the Ego is again bound to its own organism, without being able to bring with it the knowledge that had enlightened it. In this world the differences that are found between the different Egos as a result of their subjection to the various dynamics of the human psyche are too wide and multiform, even if, obviously, once the Ego is considered as a distinct and separate conscious subject with respect to the psyche's dynamics it experiences, a nucleus common to all human beings can be acknowledged. But, as I have repeatedly observed, it is precisely the different degree of identification of the Ego with the dynamics of its own psyche – and therefore the different effect of attraction exerted by the energy of the human psyche on the various Egos – which constitutes the greatest obstacle of the recognition by the Ego of its own most authentic essence, which is obscured by the involvement of the Ego in the dynamics that the psyche imposes on it through the organism. Furthermore, let us not forget that the NDEs in which the Ego unquestionably experiences the Spirit dimension are still a small percentage compared to all those cases in which the organism is in similar critical conditions and there is a loss of consciousness, during which there occurs no experience that the Ego can remember when its normal state of consciousness is restored. It is therefore quite understandable how Jayne Smith considered her own experience as a wonderful gift, received without any particular merit on her part (even if certainly her whole human life, which ended in 2021, shows how her Ego was endowed with a particular sensitivity).

The existence of NDEs, or phases of NDEs, marked by intense distressing experiences, or even characterized by the presence of wicked entities that torment an Ego forced to endure them, shows how it is not always easy to reach the Spirit dimension, and how the Ego can remain ensnared for more or less long periods in the negative dynamics of the human psyche. Indeed, I cannot even take into consideration the existence of an autonomous negative Evil dimension, also non-bipolar, and capable of definitively attracting to itself the spiritual Ego of some humans. If that were the case, our world would be nothing more than a battlefield between two distinct and separate force fields, confronting each other through the bipolar energy of the human psyche, and we humans would be just pawns in this huge chess game, with no possibility for us to decide whether we want to be black or white, and to influence our destiny in a positive way for us. Several NDEs, including that of Jayne Smith, lead us to rule out such a situation, since they show that in the Spirit dimension everything that we not only consider, but also experience and feel as negative as a result of our subjection to the dynamics of the human psyche (such as pain, suffering, disease, wars, etc.), is devoid of any meaning, and that everything is perfect as it is – thus including everything that we interpret as evil – insofar as it corresponds to a design willed by the Spirit itself, who is aware and responsible for it. This interpretation is based on a relativization of the human life experience which, considered in its limited temporal development, once it has ended – as it certainly must happen for all of us – will be replaced by a form of experience that is no longer temporary, but eternal, or in any case free from the limitations imposed by human time. Consequently, whatever the conditions in which its human life takes place, every conscious Ego experiences what it is through its confrontation with the psyche's dynamics and the consequences of its own choices and actions: precisely by experiencing what it is, and what it becomes, it determines the experiences it will encounter when it will be free from the organic form. These experiences may very well still be contaminated by the human psyche – and in particular by its negative polarity – at least until the Ego reconnects with its spiritual counterpart, in a certain sense by remembering that it exists.

During human life the conscious Ego can be represented as a potentially spiritual core, covered by a more or less thick layer of rigid and hardened incrustations generated by the human psyche: these encrustations, if on the one hand can be useful to protect the spiritual core, almost like an armour, on the other limit its possibility of entering the field of action of consciousness and of interacting directly with the organism. It may be that this spiritual core has its own autonomous existence, outside of time as we experience it in this life: certainly the needs of the organism, the variability of the environmental and social conditions in which the life of each organism takes place, the psyche's dynamics that derive from them, and the socio-cultural conditioning programs elaborated by the same psyche (through its collective manifestations), do not help the conscious Ego to get in touch with this spiritual core, which, when the organism dies, may also find it difficult to free itself from the encrusted shell that covers it. Hence the opportunity to use a part of life, especially in the final stage, to reduce and soften the shell of incrustations produced by the human psyche, in order to help the liberation of the spiritual Ego upon the death of the organism. For this purpose, it can be very useful to read, or – better still – listen to and watch on Internet sites, the accounts of many NDEs, reflecting on the reactions they produce in each of us, and on the value that our Ego feels to attribute to one or another experience. Here I could make a list with links to at least twenty experiences that I consider particularly interesting, but it doesn't seem so important to me: anyone interested can do a quick search on their own and find, especially on YouTube, the direct testimonies of the protagonists of these experiences. By listening to what they have to say, and watching the way they tell it and the emotional involvement they show through the words used (or the difficulty of finding the most effective terms), the voice's tone and the facial expressions, everyone can experience, interpret and evaluate their own reactions, and the degree of reality and truth that they intend to attribute to what is being told. They are, without any doubt, experiences that make the life of each of us less trivial and less obvious, a life whose meaning is expanded and intensified through the emphasis given to the possibility of experiencing the Spirit dimension as the final goal of any path of human existence, however tortuous and tormented it may be. While remembering the importance of never confusing two dimensions and two forms of energy so different from each other, such as that of the Spirit and that of the human psyche, the impact that the knowledge of the existence of these experiences can have on the psyche's dynamics involving the conscious Ego, when it is still bound to its organism, should not be underestimated.

An evaluation of the work accomplished so far

The commitment of these years was useful first of all to myself, to my conscious Ego, to express and communicate in a sufficiently complete and organized form both the information acquired and the interpretative elaborations of my mind, regarding the meaning of the experiences of human life and the fate of the conscious Ego at the death of its organism. The testimony of my journey can serve as a guide, or a trace, for anyone who wants to take a similar path. I started from a synthetic evaluation of our current knowledge regarding the development of organic life on the planet where we live, given that the experiences of our life are largely determined by the functioning of the organism in which our conscious Ego is formed and developed. I have tried to explain how our knowledge sheds light on some aspects of this process, but is not sufficient to reliably predict the transformations and evolutions that may occur over time, from a condition A to a condition B of the organic life system as a whole, especially when the time between state A and state B is evaluated on a geological scale. What we can ascertain is a constant increase in the complexity of the system and in the quantity of information contained in it, which must also have its cause, bearing in mind that this increase requires an expenditure of energy, based on the implications of the second law of thermodynamics. I also mentioned the remarkable transformations that occurred in a very short period of time (on a geological scale), as a result of human activities. In a certain period, in some of the organisms produced by the system of natural evolution – as we know it – a new element (consciousness) appeared which, probably through a progressive process, also determined the self-awareness of its own existence on the part of a conscious subject (the Ego), endowed with resources such as the ability to reason, a creative intelligence, the ability to develop mental schemes of knowledge of reality, and the ability to realize, with the available means, some of its own mental projects. But, above all, the conscious Ego has discovered that it has the ability to communicate with its peers in a complex, articulated and more or less profound way, through language, giving rise to that network of human interactions that initially produced the primitive societies, some of which survived until recent times, and then increasingly complex societies, made up of many millions of individuals. Even if human resources are not evenly distributed, but the Ego of some people may have at its disposal some resources to a remarkably greater extent than those available to other people on average, the ability to communicate through language (initially only spoken, but then also written) allows the transmission and diffusion of knowledge, ideas and creative elaborations within a society. Thanks to this process, some particularly gifted people have felt the need to organize human interactions in a more complex way, creating a regulated and controlled social structure, and sometimes they have managed to achieve, at least in part, this remarkable feat, which entails the achievement of a higher level of order in the dynamics of this world.

Our attention was then directed to the way in which all these processes take place as manifestations of the human psyche, which produces its effects through the mental tunings determined by the functioning of our nervous system and brain, and therefore through a very complex organic instrument. Each conscious Ego experiences the dynamics of its own psyche, which represent only a fraction of the experiences made over time by all human beings, and not only it is normally involved in them, but completely identifies with them. The observation of the diversity of the experiences determined by the psyche's dynamics, of the way in which they continuously generate – in the context of human interactions – tensions that sometimes transform into conflicts, and of how the sensitivity of the conscious Ego reacts to the various attunements it experiences, sometimes desiring them as a source of pleasure, happiness and satisfaction, but not infrequently feeling forced to endure the worries, suffering and pain, even physical, associated to them, show us the bipolar character of the psyche's energy. The psyche's negative polarity, as it is experienced by the conscious Ego, manifests itself not only in the pain determined by the functioning of the organism and its possible defects, in relation to the environmental conditions which it has to face, but also by the abuses and oppressions with which a human being (or a group of humans) afflicts another human being (or another group of humans), always made possible by the needs of the organism to which the conscious Ego feels it is linked. After having briefly exposed the main aspects of what can be considered the normal flow of the psyche's dynamics in which the conscious Ego is involved in the waking state (which obviously differs from one Ego to another), the main subjective experiences determined by non-ordinary states of consciousness were taken into account, from dreams to experiences induced by psychoactive substances, which significantly expand the range of experiences made possible by the functioning of human mind. In the light of all these events relating to the different ways in which the Ego experiences reality during human life, the question arises – from the point of view of knowledge – of how the biochemical functioning of an organ (the brain) can determine such a wide range of experiences, and in particular of how the very existence of the experiencing subject (the conscious Ego) depends on the physical state, certainly very complex, of this organ. We have seen how the debate on these issues in the scientific field is still open: although the correlation between the physical states of a complex organic system such as the brain and the experiences of the conscious Ego cannot be denied, to the point that in particular conditions the very existence of the Ego temporarily ceases, the question of how the state of a physical system can be translated into experience by a conscious subject always remains unsolved. The enigma therefore concerns the very existence of an organic system such as the human brain, and the way in which it – through the control exercised over the organism of which it is part – tunes, processes and translates the various ranges of frequency of the psyche.

The fact of knowing that the human organism, including the brain, has a temporary existence, in the final phase of which it is subject to a deterioration which is inevitably followed by death, has led us to turn our attention towards those experiences that show the existence of forms of consciousness that are to some extent autonomous and free from a human organism, or of experiences that should not occur if the conscious Ego were normally connected to its own organism: in the first case we have dealt with mediumistic phenomena, in the second with those experiences, commonly labeled as NDEs, which can take place when the organism is in critical conditions, the outcome of which could even lead to its definitive death. Once the reality of mediumistic phenomena has been ascertained, we have seen how difficult it is – based on the currently dominant cultural programs, and in the light of our scientific knowledge – to be able to develop a convincing and verifiable theory, that can explain the very fact that they occur, without resorting to the existence of inorganic entities endowed with their own autonomous intelligence, will and capacity for action. Precisely these difficulties mean that many people, under the influence of the dynamics of their own psyche, feel the irrepressible need to deny at all costs the very possibility of such phenomena occurring. We have also seen how, although these inorganic entities almost always claim to be the spirits of people who have already lived in organic form in our world, and in some cases they manage to give very convincing evidence of their connection with the personalities of the deceased, the elements of information they offer regarding their existence in the dimension in which they dwell – as well as being almost always strongly contaminated by characteristic elaborations of the human psyche – show substantial differences, and are not infrequently in conflict with each other. We thus find ourselves in the unpleasant condition of finding that our normal interpretative framework of reality has shortcomings and is inadequate to explain mediumistic phenomena (especially the physical ones), and that the information that is provided to us by the same alien intelligences that are crucial for the phenomena to occur is often confusing and incomprehensible to us, sometimes contradictory, and in any case unsatisfactory as regards the increase of our knowledge. This is one of the reasons why the interest in mediumistic phenomena, after having reached its peak in the second half of the nineteenth century and in the first decades of the twentieth century, then progressively decreased. Anyway, everyone can consult the extensive literature currently available on this topic – and in particular that relating to the communications obtained from these entities – to observe and evaluate the reactions of her/his own psychic attunements to what has happened or is happening in this particular field, also taking into account what has been explained on the subject on this site.

The reality of mediumistic phenomena and other paranormal phenomena, and the possibility that the conscious Ego can experience other dimensions in addition to that of organic life, have led us to delve deeper into the dynamics of the human psyche, whose character of bipolar energy seems to be intrinsically associated with the very needs of our organism: the various attunements of the psyche dominate all our interactions and the complex dynamics of our societies, marked by continuous interferences between what is felt and interpreted as positive or beneficial and what is instead experienced as negative and evil. The way in which the psyche's dynamics generate tensions between the two polarities – tensions made possible and enhanced by the fragmentation of consciousness into a multitude of individual experiences – leads us to assume that the conscious Ego cannot free itself from such tensions as long as it continues to identify with the psyche's dynamics by which it is involved, and that even if it undertakes a path of differentiation towards its own psyche's attunements, its complete liberation can only occur upon the death of its own organism. One of the most important consequences of the bipolarity of the human psyche is that, in the temporal dynamics that rule the relationships between causes and effects, what is experienced as positive today can have negative consequences tomorrow, and vice versa. This is why sometimes, under the dominion of the human psyche, even what is done with the best intentions and, as we use to say, for a good purpose, can over time have consequences that cause conflicts and suffering. Many forms of goodness of sentimental origin – therefore not based on a reasoned and in-depth evaluation of the effects of the various energies operating within organic life – derive from the attraction exerted on the conscious Ego of many people by the positive polarity of the human psyche, in the same way that the conscious Ego of other people cannot help but identify with the negative polarity of the same psyche. Therefore, the consistency with what is believed to be the supreme good, pushed to its extreme consequences, can lead to a voluntary renunciation of organic life, and to a kind of indifference towards the defense of human progress and the values on which human coexistence is based, towards our living conditions in relation to the resources available in our world, and the need to protect the achievements obtained so far: all things for which, at times, the same bipolarism of the psyche forces us to get our hands dirty, even when we don't want to do so. We must also not forget that another effect of the human psyche's bipolarity consists in this: that what is perceived as good for one person or a group of people, can be interpreted as bad by another person or group of people.

These considerations lead us to reflect on what may be the interferences between the energy of the Spirit and that of the human psyche, in the light of what has been revealed by those who – after having experienced the Spirit dimension during an NDE – have had to return (often against their will) to organic life, although in quite a few cases their personality has undergone remarkable changes as a result of their experiences. This same topic, that is, the interaction between two very different forms of energy, between which the conscious Ego seems to act as an intermediary, has also been addressed in some of the communications obtained through mediumship, with rather confusing and not particularly convincing results, taking into account the notable differences that characterize the experiences to which the different Egos are subject during their organic life. The least inconsistent among these attempts to interpret the transit between the dimension of organic life and that of the Spirit (assuming that this transit actually occurs, either because the Ego feels the need and longing for it, or because a higher power so wants), seems to me to be the one that sees organic life as the initial stage in which the conscious Ego is formed, develops, and in some cases even manages to evolve to a certain extent, to then continue its evolutionary path as a spiritual Ego, progressively and always improving its existential condition, whatever the conditions from which it started in this life. Less consistent and less convincing seems to me to be the interpretation according to which a spiritual Ego, distinct from the conscious Ego of which we become aware during organic life, but endowed with its own individuality, should pass over time through various human-life experiences, losing, in each of them, its self-awareness, with the aim – so to speak – of purifying itself. The fact remains that experiences in the Spirit dimension often determine a transformation of the conscious Ego, a transformation that is also found when the Ego returns to organic life. A paradoxical aspect, at least apparently, of all these events in which the Ego can be involved, is that the same Ego, while on the one hand should be precisely that entity that knows its own essence best, on the other hand remains a mystery even for itself: only in the Spirit dimension, according to what has been reported by those who have been able to experience it, is it able to assimilate all the knowledge needed to solve this mystery, but this knowledge can never be transferred into the dimension of organic life. Evidently, time – and the way in which it is perceived during organic life – remains the determining key to this mystery, and the organism's death can be interpreted as the liberation of the conscious Ego from the unidirectional temporal flow that has characterized its human life. In a sense, the spiritual Ego could be referred to as the Ego's memory of its future state, although this future should be understood as a time-free condition, rather than as something that occurs after the organism's death.


The time has come for me to interrupt this blog, at least for a while, so as not to risk repeating what I have already written, even several times, without being able to offer any new reliable information in terms of knowledge. However, it is not my intention to abandon the site updating: I will devote my time and attention to reading again everything I have written in these years, to verify its consistency and to correct or better arrange, where necessary, the expository form. The definitive title of this site became The mystery of human life because, as I proceeded in the elaboration of the various themes addressed here, I realized that many of the aspects of this organic life of ours that we take for granted as the habit with which we experience them leads us to consider them as normal, are instead enigmatic when our mind turns its attention to their causes, their motivations and their purposes. The same conscious Ego, which – in the multiform variety generated by the fragmentation of consciousness into a multitude of individual organisms – is the protagonist of the various experiences we have covered here (in its capacity both as experiencer and sensor), becomes a mystery even to itself when it realizes that its existence is subject to a temporal flow which leads it both to interpret and evaluate its own past and to try to foresee and determine its own future. In fact, to continue living in this organic life, the Ego is forced to provide for the needs of its own organism, and consequently also to endure all the negative effects the dynamics of the psyche activated by the organism transmit to it, while to try the fate of experimenting with other possible dimensions it must first free itself from the same organism to which it feels bound. Only by freeing itself from the effects of the temporal flow in which it is immersed can the Ego loosen the ties with its past, and stop worrying about what may happen to it in the future, but it is evident that the dynamics induced by the human psyche energetically oppose this liberation. While waiting to experience what may possibly happen after the death of its organism, the Ego therefore has to continue to experience what happens before the death, as time proceeds towards that inevitable event. And here it is necessary for me to stop, given that these are individual and personal experiences that cannot be addressed or interpreted according to conventional objective criteria. I can only add that, at least as far as I am concerned, I see no valid reason why the experience of the events preceding death cannot be positive and even pleasant and enjoyable: of course, it doesn't mean that things will actually go this way!

Now I would like to thank all those who, in many parts of this world, have followed this site, and also those who will visit it in the future: my commitment over these years has not been driven by the desire to teach something to others (I hope, anyway, that I have also managed to provide some useful information), but rather – as I have already said – to leave a trace of the path of development and evolution of a conscious Ego, which can serve, as it were, as an orientation map also for other Egos, to whom I express my gratitude for the attention they paid to me. If I will have something new and meaningful to add to what I have exposed so far, I will certainly continue to publish it on the pages of this blog. Furthermore, although it is not my intention to transform this site into a social network open to public debate (also because I have neither the skills nor the resources to do so), should anyone feel the need to ask some questions or express their critical reflections on the topics discussed here, they can do so by sending an email (addressed to Jusvein, the username I have chosen) at if I think the argument is interesting, I will publish the email on a new page of the blog, with my considerations about it, and any other contributions (if there will be any), always sent with the same system. Due to the possible misunderstandings and recriminations that the psyche's dynamics can always determine in human interactions, it is however necessary that the emails contain an explicit authorization for their publication: otherwise, I will answer privately, as I have done so far. In any case, I maintain the right to decide whether or not to publish, in whole or in part, what is written in the emails received: the languages to be used are English or Italian. Everyone can notice the (useless) complications – which often translate into open opposition, even conflictual – determined by the fragmentation of consciousness in a multitude of organisms, due to the way in which the different attunements produced by the psyche's bipolar energy manifest themselves and react (almost always through automatisms that the Ego does not control) in human interactions.

Finally, I realize that from a technical point of view this site is now obsolete: it is easily readable on computers (desktop and laptop) and high definition tablets, but not on other mobile devices such as smartphones. Furthermore, despite being a clean site that does not use cookies or tracking forms of any kind, it is not adequate for current security criteria. The site was designed and created step by step by me, it has grown over all these years, and I am no longer able, now, to radically modify it to adapt it to current standards, nor do I intend to bear the expense of having a professional webmaster do it. However, if any person or organization is interested in using the material from this site in a parallel site, updated and adapted to current internet standards, they can contact me, again via an email addressed to I will gladly consider any serious proposal in this sense, provided that what I have written is not altered and that the original source be always mentioned.

I therefore end by expressing the hope of having clearly explained the differences between the bipolar energy of the human psyche, under the dominion of which the conscious Ego finds itself due to its dependence on the organism to which it is bound, and the non-bipolar energy that is experienced in the Spirit dimension, once the Ego, freed from organic life, manages to get there. Although the psyche's positive polarity can be interpreted – in many respects – as a reflection of the Spirit's energy, my opinion is that it is naive and not very intelligent to believe that the bipolarity that characterizes the psyche's energy can be eliminated only by virtue of this reflection. It seems to me more interesting for the Ego to undertake a path of differentiation from the dynamics of its own psyche already during its human life, which prepares it to definitively separate from the psyche's field of energy upon the death of its own organism. And with this I close and thank everyone who has read or will read what I have written so far.




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